36 Weeks

This is my last week at work!!!! Whoohooo!!! I cant even begin to tell you how excited I am about that. I haven't NOT had a job in like 10 years! I need a break! Haha...but...He's almost here! I can't hardly wait! I still sometimes look at my ever growing belly and realize I am about to be a mother! I mean, its the strangest feeling to know that something is growing inside you and you can kinda see it. Moving around, having hiccups, kicking me in my ribs, oh yeah, he's in there! My mind is still racing with random thoughts of 'What it will be like to have him in the flesh?', 'Will I be a good mom?', 'How bad is this really going to hurt?', 'Will I ever get my body back?', 'Is he ok?' I'm sure everything will be just fine but it's hard to relax sometimes when you are heading into the complete unknown (With no way to back out now! haha) without any idea of how everything is about to play out. Its scary and exciting all at the same time! I'm usually for the most part in control of what happens in my life but this is totally out of my element...there is nothing I can do but let is take it's course...Craziness...